Can you believe that the weekend went by so quickly?
Haven’t written in a while- I had a bit of a crap feeling sorry for myself week last week
one of our friend’s told me last week that she is pregnant and while I am really happy for her, damn am I feeling sorry for myself. So when she told me all I could do was burst into tears!
Although I know that you never get over a MC- it gets better, but this one just hit me for a 6
I mean I am so happy for all the ladies on the forum with their BFP’s and babies that have really been popping out this month, I have no idea why this one hit me so hard
Sort of feels like everyone around me is falling pregnant and not me (even though we are officially not TCC)
So anyway I think I just need to get over myself and deal with it
B has been fantastic but thinks now that this is all his fault because he wants to wait until our papers for NZ come through before we start TCC again ( papers are only going in in Sept)
Weekend was great, went to the Vodacom Comedy Fest at the Baxter on Fri night, I laughed so much that halfway through I had a mega asthma attack that I struggled to control and had to try not to laugh- not easy let me tell you
Saturday we went to watch B’s old high school play their school games (these old boys and their dedication to their schools) it ws loads of fun with Wynburg remaining unbeaten. All I can say is WOW those guys are HUGE and they are still in school???
Then it was off to the local to watch the BOKS and the Lions. YEAH won that too. And I won a rugby ball and bottle opener there!
Sun was Father’s Day- missed my dad loads, so was a little on the quiet side yesterday, but had a lovely day none the less, went to the Flea Market and made a roast and watched the rest of 4400
So back at work and at the grindstone, damn I wish that I could win the lotto and retire (the R35 I won of Sat is just not going to cut it)
Or maybe even just get a job that I can work from home- or a teaching job again
There I go day dreaming again
Hi hun!
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to give you a biiiiiiiiig hug! Remember that it is completely normal to be hurt by someone elses pregnancy, and yes, we can admit it, even when it's someone who has battled to fall pregnant!! It is just 10 times worse if it happens to someone who either does not understand what we go through or someone who is flippent about pregnancy. I already have a baby, and it still sometimes hurts me to hear about pregnancies, especially if I know for a fact that it was one of those 'instant' pregnancies... You have every right to feel down and sad!!! Shout if you need a shoulder to cry on!
xxx
Big (((((HUGS)))) from me!
ReplyDeleteI really can understand your pain. You think you fine and then it slaps you in the face ... and you realise you aren't really!
I am the same as Karien, I see people that are well intot heir pregnancy and think, that should have been me??? My brain isn't logical!
Glad you had a good weekend though!
Sorry about being sad on Father day! Big (((((HUGS)))) for that too!